To Be or To Become

i finally check in after almost more than a week of starting this blog...the blog kinda looks a little gayish at the moment..hehe. unfortunately me trying to make it more ancient is failing pretty badly..oh heck...improvisationhas to be done...

anyway...checking in with a bang i must say...happiness is somehow replaced with worries... nah..dun fret...im not going to be all depressing here and all..ill tell you why later..hehe. anyhow...one challenge completed means the beginning of a new challenge. and later has arrived..hehe. well whatever i said before about my life being depressing and boring i think is kinda bullshit..i actually think that my life is quite exciting..i mean would u prefer going on with your daily life with everything on schedule and everything feeling routine?? i for one would pretty much hate that...its nice to have changes happening right before your eyes...obstacles placed to block progress...and life being as twisting and turning as the road going up to genting...

i think im one of the few fortunate people to have been given such a colourful life...sure it can be painful...it can be harsh...but it adds colour...and thats what life is all about. seizing great moments and facing adversity with a determined face...the thing is..i realised all of this only when i started a reading someone's blog and my own..hehe. well not to brag or anything...i kinda sounded poetic when depressed but it was still sad afterall...cant see myself writing all of that for life..hehe. anyway.that someone made me realise how lucky i was..not to say that she is unlucky or anything...oops. i said she..hehe. hmmm..who is it???.. ill give you a hint...its definitely not someone im very close with... i see some relieve faces now..hehe.

anyway this young woman does not know what a great life she actually has...she gets upset over every small thing...and to her that makes life pretty miserable...all she wants to do is compare herself with others...and she complains about the same thing over and over again...but at the end of the day..if she finally stops to smell the flowers she would realise that everything is not what it seems to be.

hmmm..wait a minute. that sounded like me..hehe.oh well...ill raise my hand up...neh..both hands in fact..im guilty as charge..i mean it doesn matter if you have a chronic disease...failed an exam...almost losing your eyesight...or had friends taken advantage of your kindness...its still all the same. its a learning process ill say....

and we become better because of this...geez. do i sound like im repeating myself?...darn it...getting old here.

anyway here's a toast to life...im only 21...thats like 1/3 of my life or maybe even 1/2 of it...you never know what u might die of eh...hehe. maybe IHD?? CHD?? ...hehe. heart diseases. so im going to live my life to the fullest. God gave us one life...its now or never :-)

tk out