To Be or To Become

i guess if there was one thing that would keep me going for next few years, this would be it... what am i talking about...im talking about humanitarian work... its not exactly one's typical dream... for most it would be to make money... enough money to buy a car...a house... start a family... have children and a really comfortable life..

now usually this is my cue to start my criticism and sarcasm about all the above...but i got to agree...who wouldn want that..heck...even i would love that. i would love to be driving down the expressway on my maserati GT...wearing nothing but the finest clothes and coming home to my lovely wife and children.. 

but thats just not really me.... instead what i want to do is to able to perform surgery in the middle of a dessert with very basic equipment on hand...okie..so that sounds fantasised... most people including my parents would tell me to come back to reality. but to put it in simpler terms...i would really love to spend my time doing humanitarian work...

now most people would ask me why i took up medicine....i had the chance to do law...i had the chance to do aeronautical engineering...i could have taken up finance or accounting... all this were on my mind in college... i was also brainwash by a certain person this was my path...(not my family) ... in fact if i really had it my way from secondary..i would be studying paleontology right now (if i felt like being disowned by my family..hehe) .oh well..back to the topic....medicine was the one way i felt i could serve humanity better (whoa..bring out the tissues...such a touching moment) ...haha...okie..basically thats true...i want to be a surgeon and i want to work in harsh conditions...my life would not be complete if i do not do that.... i dont exactly tell anyone this (although im telling you now) because no one would believe me... and i dont blame that for that. 

but somehow along the way...ive lost track...lost my focus... and maybe its time to get back on track.... to work towards what i want to do....