To Be or To Become

and so my hiatus or sabbatical...or whatever one calls it comes to end. actually it ended a week ago..but hmmm. lets jus say this is official..and so i have a month left to my holiday before i began clinical life...exciting isnt it..definitely. now we finally get our hands dirty and get screwed big time by the big guys not the small fries we get in pre-clinical.

admittedly pre-clinical was jus plain fake...taking history was humorous as it is...imagine talking to a so-called patient (they call them simulated patient) and he or she suddenly has to look down at a paper to tell me when the pain started....as much as i know that this is part of training ..its jus doesn feel like it at all....im suppose to examine a guy whom on paper has renal cell carcinoma...but when i ballot or examine him...his kidneys are jus as good as mine..hmm maybe i have rcc...maybe u do.. geez. at least now i get real patients to harass and molest...oh the joy of it. finally hearing a murmur that was never there to begin with. 

anyway...as any tuck kit holiday is and can be....its jus the kind of holiday i always have. i guess we can call it karma. u see...most people treat a holiday as a holiday..work time as work time. i however seem to treat my work time as a holiday..therefore when a holiday drops by every so now and then i seem to not feel that it is a holiday at all. wow. i used the word holiday so many times. u would think im enjoying one now. but me being me...i always find ways or things seem to find ways to screw itself over and fall into blackhole. poor thing i say...poor me i say too.

oh well...not that im going to sit and sulk the whole month anyway. life is too valuable to waste ill say. ive been making the best of it albeit to all the snags i seem to run in to.... one thing's for sure. im not planning anything. i may be good at planning events or managing clubs but when it comes to planning a holiday or even a day out. it just sucks. period. seriously..even a 5 year old could do better. damn this 5 year olds. haha. 

oh well...here's a toast with my glass of water (which im trying to pass of as white wine for no apparent reason) to better days ahead for the month of august. sure its jus the start of the month. dry spells always come to an end...and i dun mean sex u dirty little buggers :P ...or maybe thats jus me... hmm. yea...u get what i mean. anyway..i shud probably consider taking another hiatus. im inspired by the cute and elegant lady i was flirting at the gnc shop. haha.

p.s. safe safe me...im all alone....oh goodness me...why dun i have frens... 

hahahaha...u'd think id seriously say that??? puzleeeeeeeeeeeeze

tk out

hmmm..i seem pretty poor at judging the size of fonts. therefore apologies for the eyesore here and there. i do admit some were deliberate though ;)