To Be or To Become

mood: hopeful

since im on a row..i shall not stop at 2 ...lets me make it a threesome i say. hmmm..what shall i talk about now? ..maybe i should shed some light on being a "white" boy...heh. most of you would know what i mean...

okie...unlike what you would expect im not exactly going to talk about races and all that nonsense...im just going to touch a bit on segregation...you see i actually find the irony in all this....how we have our own groupies...yup...its like woodstock all over again. when we are young...we seem to mix around with everyone...okie..i did (still do) ...not sure about you...and when i say everyone...its us chinese...malays...indians....and many many other races...we mingle...we talk...young meaning primary...or maybe we shall call it the naive age...as we enter secondary...a clearer picture starts to be seen...forgive me for my crudeness here.... you see 3 separate color groups...the whites..blacks...browns.. there will still be a white here and there among the blacks and browns (yours truly) and vice versa....but when you enter university...its a clear and well defined line....the mixture is a minority...my minority meaning almost to the point of dodo bird extinctions...

and everyone seems to have matured....now ill take just 2 examples...the indians..most of them would never acknowledge the existence of the chinese...they prefer the save haven of their own people..shunning the rest as though they have leprosy...and oh well..the chinese aren doing too well themselves...they think that anyone who cant speak their language or probably speak fluent english comes from mars...hmm or maybe even venus..(ill be sure to ask them the next time round) ...okie..so maybe im generalizing all this..but this is what i see and experience day to day...in university..or rather in IMU ...if its not race...its like the american sorority stuff...woohoo....on 1 corner...im smart...the rest of you are idiots....i scorn and criticise you..but ive an attitude of a dumb blonde, bitchy as hell...in the other corner...hey. im metrosexual...that means im to the point of gay...and i think queer eye for the straight guy is the best show on earth...i know more make up then women and heck...my nose is stucked high it could pierce your ass and reach all the way up to ur gut. ...hmmm..i didn know i could write that..hehe (just to make sure everyone's clear...i got no problem with gays unless they are trying to hit on me..hehe) ..and maybe another corner....hey..im macho...its a man's man world...ill rather you cut off my penis before i admit i was geek in the past...

okie...so im starting to go a little overboard with this..but ill give you the heads up..just imagine laguna beach or american uni kids in movies...go figure

its sad to see of all this happening...i being one who was use to having more frens from other races then my own in secondary...now being shunned most of the time because of my color...and not only that....also from my own race who scorn the flunecy of my english and the lack of spoken mandarin....oh well...one would say wake up and smell the roses. 

ive always wanted to ask this question...but i know it can never be answered...why must we segregate ourselves?? ..is it necessary...it sometimes comes to the point that choosing a partner has to be of same color....religion....sub religion...origin.... maybe i was thought never to understand the limitations of such things...maybe its my grandfathers fault for teaching me that a human no matter wat is on the outside is still a human....strip us bare and we have everything in common.

so i say..open up...i wrote this not to be cynical as i did in the last post...but its a small cry to a small group of people...my friends...in hope that it starts little by little...forget the color...forget the language...at the end of the day...if you love someone..if you befriend someone...if you like someone...its because of their personality...choose with your heart...not with your eyes...for that is all you need...maybe you might say im being naive..there is more to it then meets the eye....but for me..set it all aside... if i can mix with indians and malays without judging them..why cant you? dont let it be a boundary...

and if its possible..show me you are able to accept....ive gone thru racist attitudes directed at me...yet i still mingle....i still persevere...try it...it wont kill you

tk out